Oh Lord, please don't tell me that hot man-on-man sex is dead ...

I am not ashamed to admit this: I have masturbated several times to "Brokeback Mountain." I've watched it at home and had to take a break to go masturbate, and I've just plain thought about it in bed late at night and masturbated to it. As I once told my book club, (which subsequently didn't invite me back,) the man-on-man sex in that movie was HOT. I can't help it; it might make me a freak, but fuck, it turned me on. And apart from that, I just fucking LOVED that movie.

So tonight when I came home from my 9-fucking-hour-long deposition (the CONTINUED part of it, which had already gone 6 hours last week), and got online and clicked over to CNN and saw that Heath Ledger had died, man I was sad.

And then I had to go and read mike's post. (Ok, I didn't read his post right away ... only checked it out right before going to bed, and actually after emailing w/ him about other stuff anyway, so I wasn't thinking about Hot Heath all that time, but the point is ...) MAN it got me riled up. Because I cannot emphasize enough, (and if you read some of my old posts back when that movie first came out and man now I wish I'd never deleted them), I FUCKING LOVED that movie. I mean, come on ... hot masculine sexy rough manly cowboy men, gettin it on? It's female porn. And it was romantic to boot ... it was REALLY female porn. REALLY.

And while there's not much point to this post, other than to say how much I truly loved that movie and really was sad to see Heath died, I do want to share this little email exchange, because this pretty well sums it up:

Sadielady to Mike: Ok, I just read your post, and I have to say: HOW DARE YOU make fun of my favorite dead gay cowboy actor? Seriously, do you know how much I loved that fuckin movie? LOVED it. I got HOT over it.
and btw, you better fucking not be lumping me in with the "lonely fat women" group. b/c i'll fucking punch your lights out if you are.
not that there's anything wrong with that ...

Mike to Sadielady: i guess i should have added another category for you: extremely horny single women :P

Sadielady to Mike: damn straight. DAMN STRAIGHT. :P
in fact, you should do it now. as a ps for me. :P
seriously, i might have to just add this little convo to my own blog, as part of a reverential post to my favorite hot-man-on-man-sex actor ... expect it to come tomorrow, in fact. god i loved that movie. i masturbated to it a few times, i'm not ashamed to admit.

Damn you Heath, why'd you have to quit us? I was hoping for a sequel...