Interesting

This afternoon I had a phone conversation with an attorney from another firm about a current case. It just happened to be this attorney I have a secret, strictly fantasy-driven crush on. Perfectly harmless, since he's married, and since there's no flirtation or anything even remotely close to flirtation, and I've not told anyone about my crush. (Except, well, anyone who's read my anonymous post about it here.)

Well as I was leaving work this afternoon, I was walking and talking with my boss/friend, and I was telling her about my conversation with that attorney, since we were talking about something new and unusual that's going on with this particular case.

And I made a comment about how he's a funny guy, he'd made a humorous comment that made me laugh. And my boss/friend said, "I think he likes you."

I was struck dumb, it was such an out of the blue comment for her to make; and especially given my own secret fantasies about him. I was thinking to myself, "shit, can she tell that I like him? Is that what that comment was about? Am I actually that transparent, even though I thought I was totally and successfully concealing this little crush?" Because while I think he likes me in general as a person, I certainly don't think he likes me THAT way. The way I secretly like him, that is.

After realizing an awkward silence had just passed, after that comment by her, I finally managed to say "he's a nice guy." And then changed the subject. And thought to myself, "if only." And, not only "if only that were true," but also "if only that were true and he were single."

At any rate, it was interesting. That she said that. Huh.